I'm back! Hi RD! I was wondering why you didn't Skype me...and you still haven't...oh well, you're here now or not...goodbye Dashie. So how is everypony? Because I had a great night as of yet with the brushies and all!
First you jiggle your tail! Oink oink oink! Then you wriggle your snout! Oink oink oink! Then you wiggle your rump! Oink oink oink! Then shout it out! Oink oink oink!
(if I don't get it out to someone, I never will. I used to be an absolutely miserable wreck, and would come off more than a tad psycho for bursting out at people and other things, it also makes me seem awkward when ignoring them since my eyes shoot around like nuts looking at everything. It's absolutely nauseating and the things haven't really moved in a while, but since I started getting happy again...they were there...it's getting hard to ignore, even while typing this...)
It's when you wake up but cannot move at all. You can sometimes open your mouth a tad bit, but you only make hushed noises instead of words. You try to lift your body up, but it feels like something is pushing you down and you can only get your hand up off the bed maybe a few cm at most. When you have your eyes open, you can usually see things. It's a terrible feeling. Not being able to controll yourself.
Yes it happens to some people, because when the chemical that keeps you asleep in your brain just doesn't work sometimes and you "wake up" but the substance that keeps you from moving around has not shut off. that's roughly what I know. Its the opposite of sleep walking pretty much.
(I understand what it is. I overcame that, but I still think sometimes it was the things doing it, even though I know they are fabricated from my subconscious and serve only to avert my boredom, though unsuccessfully, and creepily. They didn't used to seem...unintentionally, mockingly friendly like now...)
I only have had my eyes open once. I can't even explain everything I saw... In a related story, one time I walked into my room and it was pitch black, but I could make out an extremly tsll man(Slenderman size) standing on my bed. I turned on my tv since I was to scared to go across the room to turn on the lights. The tv slowly lit up and there was nothing there.
(These things just go wherever whenever they're around as humans. Otherwise they are simply shadows out of the corners and center of my eyes. At least they don't hide, that's the best part)
(don't tell anyone though, there is a reason I haven't shared it, it's because it is purely within my mind and has nothing to do with any physical ailments.)
(I hope you don't mind me confiding things in you. when I was young, I would talk to them, but nobody really thought much of it when they went away and I was just left to secretive misery in life, I became great at masking emotion and creating fake ones, I barely can feel anything anymore, I feel anger, happiness, recently sadness again, and emptiness.....it should be the other way around, they should show up when I feel bad, not when I feel good. It really is f*cked up...)
Okay. Here's something that always bugged me. Every time me and my family would go to church, we'd pass by a hill and I always saw this small cross that looked like it was just caught on fire, but had been burned out. I asked serveral times to everyone if they could see it. They all said no. It happened for about a year before it just vanished. Kinda weird, I'd say...
(I do too, but these things resemble people I've met and seen, act like them too, and for some reason still frighten me...that is why I truly do not want to believe they are real. In any case, they can't be anything but accidental self-characterized entities of prior emotion...which I feel like I no longer have. They have no connections to the world other than those they symbolize. I also have these odd dreams that are actually useful, and always surmount to something. In them I'm almost like...a fur or something...it looks weird, sounds weird, but exactly resembles me. I must sound like I was let out of an asylum right now...I should just forget about it...)
Ugh. I know you colts won't think I'm serious, and totally laugh, but...sometimes I see future events in my dreams. I don't mean anything important. Just random crap. Example: Me talking someone who was wearing the same clothes, eating the same food, etc in my dream. Before it started happening to me, my sister used to tell me she saw these visions. I was like trololol okay. Then I believed her when it started happening to me...
(at least your dreams are straightforward. Mine look like millenia old past lives for me...they make sense and adapt to now later, but it's just weird.)
(I'm probably not, I know my relative's usernames. What is her name, just to be sure? Hold on...she has the same kind of condition...what is it called just so I can check...)
And that's that.
ReplyDeleteCake!
ReplyDeleteDidn't said hello before, so hello!
DeleteThanks.
ReplyDeleteI cant see past 200 on my phone
I was about to ask why you guys stopped at around 200.
DeleteI can see past 200 just fine on my phone :I
*squeesqueesquee*
ReplyDeleteYou sound like a squishy toy
DeleteSo now that that is settled.
ReplyDeleteWell, i thought the rune show was extremely extreme. What was the point of it?
DeleteOh I got bored, I had a point but meh. Don't feel like continuing now.
DeleteI wonder.
DeleteWell, it was pretty weird coming from me telling you to draw something
DeleteOkay. Maybe I should continue writing...but Flare's here...I'm torn. T-T
ReplyDelete*yawn*
ReplyDeleteI'm getting sleepy...
I didn't get enough sleep last night, but who cares?
DeleteHey everypony!
ReplyDeleteOh hello RD
DeleteHello rainbow dash!
DeleteHey Rainbow Dash!
DeleteSup RD
DeleteCan I sleep with you Flare!?
ReplyDelete..........................
*realizes how strange that sounded* *blushes* Er...you know what I mean...
Ho yay.
DeleteSure!
DeleteAnypony tired yet? Cus I need your tirednesssss
ReplyDeleteIm tired, but i cant sleep right now.
DeleteIts only 7:30 here -_- hard for me to be tired.
DeleteI probably shoulda just Skyped the whole way home... I'm WIRED now...
DeletePlus, changing time zones messed me up
DeleteYes I can see that.
DeleteIts past midnight here.
DeleteSo you live east of the Atlantic??
DeleteNah, i live in south america.
DeleteYou didn't know?
DeleteOkay, I was thinking based on US times.
Delete*squee* yaaayy! ^w^
ReplyDeleteTo bad we didn't get to do a trial tonight eh?
ReplyDeleteYeah, that was fun.
DeleteI could easily make the runes in he last post work into a part of the story.
DeleteYeah. Hover is spanish right?
ReplyDeleteChilean to be precise.
DeleteChile's the only country I've been to! (other than USA of course)
DeleteI don't travel much.
DeleteReally?
DeleteWould'ya look at that!
Which city?
I actually went to Santiago... I forget why
DeleteSantiago?
DeleteIf i were you i would have visited viña del mar.
Way prettier.
Yay I've typed 2 more pages. On number 7 out of 15+! w00
ReplyDeleteNice! What is your story about again?
DeleteI'm gonna go entertain myself now. Bye, everypony!
ReplyDeleteThat is reason to leave... But have fun anyway.
DeleteLater dash.
DeleteSee you later!
Delete*looks up from typing*
ReplyDeleteFunny you should mention. I'm typing how the Rainbow stuffed corpse looks right now...forgive me, Dash...
Okay sorry I asked.
DeleteFortunately she left
DeleteI am going to think about my void of prisms. And forget I read that sentence at all.
DeleteYou guys have weak guts.
DeleteAnd you must have a non realistic imagination... >.>
DeleteI can switch between thoughts rather easily.
DeleteI used to hallucinate at night when I was a child. It freaking sucked.
DeleteFrom my childhood memories, i remember the shadows of the rainbow dinosaurs.
DeleteHallucinated...it's worse when you know when they're there...when you see them...(irl it started happening again)
Delete(Really?)
Delete(yes. it is almost as if any time I come near real happiness...I just see things...)
Delete(i just remember waking up and seeing brightly colored dinosaurs. It was mostly weird)
Delete(I see these shadows mostly, shifting around. Eventually one will take a human form and talk. Mostly asking how I am and what I'm doing...)
DeleteThat's just creepy.
DeleteI'm back! Hi RD! I was wondering why you didn't Skype me...and you still haven't...oh well, you're here now or not...goodbye Dashie. So how is everypony? Because I had a great night as of yet with the brushies and all!
ReplyDeleteIm great, waiting to carry out your orders.
Delete*cough cough* brushies *cough cough*
Delete*winks*
Delete*brushie brushie brushies luna's mane*
*murmuring, muttering* don't think any less of me for loving the brushies...
DeleteI have nothing against that.
DeleteIn fact, i like making you happy.
It's just...
It's fine, you don't have to tell me.
DeleteHello Princess! Furiously typing my fic...
ReplyDeleteAh...*death glare* I'm not in it...right...? I already have an idea of what your story is...so don't make me have to...hmmm...get thirsty...
DeleteNo, you're not in it...
ReplyDelete*thinks about an interesting alter ending*
Hmmmm...
I know right? Though I feel kinda like a flankhole for writing this.
ReplyDeleteAs you should. If you would like a grimdark fic from me and my experiences fully in writing, your eyes would be dried up permanently...
DeleteFirst you jiggle your tail! Oink oink oink!
ReplyDeleteThen you wriggle your snout! Oink oink oink!
Then you wiggle your rump! Oink oink oink!
Then shout it out! Oink oink oink!
I see a lot of things. Especially during sleep paralysis. I see monsters, demons, people, etc. Really sucks.
ReplyDeleteSleep paralysis?
DeleteI know about it.
DeleteAnd I get sleep paralysis pretty often...
ReplyDeleteI do not wan't to think about this anymore so change the subject. TRIAL!
ReplyDelete(if I don't get it out to someone, I never will. I used to be an absolutely miserable wreck, and would come off more than a tad psycho for bursting out at people and other things, it also makes me seem awkward when ignoring them since my eyes shoot around like nuts looking at everything. It's absolutely nauseating and the things haven't really moved in a while, but since I started getting happy again...they were there...it's getting hard to ignore, even while typing this...)
DeleteWe need vicky for that
DeleteIt's when you wake up but cannot move at all. You can sometimes open your mouth a tad bit, but you only make hushed noises instead of words. You try to lift your body up, but it feels like something is pushing you down and you can only get your hand up off the bed maybe a few cm at most. When you have your eyes open, you can usually see things. It's a terrible feeling. Not being able to controll yourself.
ReplyDeleteYes it happens to some people, because when the chemical that keeps you asleep in your brain just doesn't work sometimes and you "wake up" but the substance that keeps you from moving around has not shut off. that's roughly what I know. Its the opposite of sleep walking pretty much.
Delete(I understand what it is. I overcame that, but I still think sometimes it was the things doing it, even though I know they are fabricated from my subconscious and serve only to avert my boredom, though unsuccessfully, and creepily. They didn't used to seem...unintentionally, mockingly friendly like now...)
DeleteSince you're fighting it the whole time, when it finally stops, you're eyes burst open and you gasp.
ReplyDeleteYes. And it happens to me a lot :/
ReplyDeleteYou know? I agree with om, lets change subject
ReplyDelete(they'll be back when we do...*sigh* go ahead, no different than normal I guess...)
DeleteSorry...
DeleteI only have had my eyes open once. I can't even explain everything I saw...
ReplyDeleteIn a related story, one time I walked into my room and it was pitch black, but I could make out an extremly tsll man(Slenderman size) standing on my bed. I turned on my tv since I was to scared to go across the room to turn on the lights. The tv slowly lit up and there was nothing there.
(These things just go wherever whenever they're around as humans. Otherwise they are simply shadows out of the corners and center of my eyes. At least they don't hide, that's the best part)
Delete(don't tell anyone though, there is a reason I haven't shared it, it's because it is purely within my mind and has nothing to do with any physical ailments.)
Delete(No one will know but our Cabinet)
Delete(I can be here if you need me guys.)
ReplyDelete(I hope you don't mind me confiding things in you. when I was young, I would talk to them, but nobody really thought much of it when they went away and I was just left to secretive misery in life, I became great at masking emotion and creating fake ones, I barely can feel anything anymore, I feel anger, happiness, recently sadness again, and emptiness.....it should be the other way around, they should show up when I feel bad, not when I feel good. It really is f*cked up...)
Delete(I don't mind at all, although I find irony in the thing about the emotions. I don't feel much anymore.)
Delete[insert giggle at the ghostie here]
ReplyDeleteOkay. Here's something that always bugged me. Every time me and my family would go to church, we'd pass by a hill and I always saw this small cross that looked like it was just caught on fire, but had been burned out. I asked serveral times to everyone if they could see it. They all said no. It happened for about a year before it just vanished. Kinda weird, I'd say...
ReplyDelete(you have real visions...mine I feel are simply in my head, you get messages...)
DeleteNoooo. Smile, Smile, Smile is much better<333
ReplyDeleteBut this one makes sense in context
Delete(if you would call them anything, it's shades...that what they really are, if not hallucinations...)
DeleteWell, I personally beileve and ghosts and such, so yeah. *shrug*
ReplyDelete(I do too, but these things resemble people I've met and seen, act like them too, and for some reason still frighten me...that is why I truly do not want to believe they are real. In any case, they can't be anything but accidental self-characterized entities of prior emotion...which I feel like I no longer have. They have no connections to the world other than those they symbolize. I also have these odd dreams that are actually useful, and always surmount to something. In them I'm almost like...a fur or something...it looks weird, sounds weird, but exactly resembles me. I must sound like I was let out of an asylum right now...I should just forget about it...)
DeleteUgh. I know you colts won't think I'm serious, and totally laugh, but...sometimes I see future events in my dreams. I don't mean anything important. Just random crap.
ReplyDeleteExample: Me talking someone who was wearing the same clothes, eating the same food, etc in my dream.
Before it started happening to me, my sister used to tell me she saw these visions. I was like trololol okay. Then I believed her when it started happening to me...
(Its not to hard to believe, at least not to me)
Delete(at least your dreams are straightforward. Mine look like millenia old past lives for me...they make sense and adapt to now later, but it's just weird.)
Deletelol i get premonitions when i sleep all the time. usually minor stuff, but still, some pretty weird deja vu moments happen all the time lol
DeleteI believe what i want to believe.
ReplyDeleteI dont like ghosts, so i dont believe in them.
(you are truly lucky. I actually envy you. One more emotion regained I suppose...)
DeleteSo ingnorance is bliss then? :p
ReplyDeleteIm leaving now.
ReplyDeleteThis convo went way south, and i have to sleep anyways.
There is way to much going on here for me to type back about even though I want too.
ReplyDeleteNight hover!
Yeah. Let's stop talking about all this. The fourth wall, she has shattered.
ReplyDelete(my emotional health is permanently shattered...let's just move on and stop staving off the return of the damned life clinging shadows...)
Delete(Too much here to type about, this topic is more placed for talking)
ReplyDelete(it isn't, since it would be happening while I was talking.)
Delete(typing gives me to much time to think and not enough to actually converse)
DeleteNight you all.
ReplyDeletenight night hover
DeleteGoodnight, lucky stallion...
DeleteI have typed out almost half of the fic. Yay~
ReplyDelete(time to put back on the queenly mask and return to my duties...*sigh*) Does anypony here have a Skype?
ReplyDeleteWell yea, I don't live by any of my friends.
DeleteCan you give me your username, and turn on your Skype please?
DeleteI suppose. take.da.picture, its the one I used when I needed to take pictures of art on the road.
Deleteoh and ghosts/spirits/shades are totally real
ReplyDelete(Yes I know...I don't want to believe these are real though, they just seem too unnatural...)
Deleteactually everything you've said so far sounds exactly like my cousin <_< if you are her im gonna rofl
Delete(I'm probably not, I know my relative's usernames. What is her name, just to be sure? Hold on...she has the same kind of condition...what is it called just so I can check...)
Deletemarina
DeleteI'm bored and tired. *snuggles in bed with Flare*
ReplyDeleteGood night everypony! *snuggles*
ReplyDeleteOh! You're awake? Yay :D
ReplyDelete*nuzzles*
Night to you who are going to sleep!
ReplyDeleteI'll be going to sleep very shortly.
ReplyDeleteGood night my friends, I'm off on a quest to distant land tomarrow to seek out new adventures and stories.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, shouldn't the banner be fixed? It's kinda bursting off the page. xD
ReplyDeleteOn my computer it looks fine, so it just may not look right on mobile.
DeleteYea banner looks fine to me.
DeleteNo. See, I'm on a computer. Before I was on my friend's. And I've also seen it on mobile. All were going out.
ReplyDeleteWelp. I'm off to bed everypony. Nightynight!
ReplyDelete*closes eyes and falls asleep hugging Flare*
night
Deletelol so my cousins name is marina <_< lol
ReplyDeletedead post is dead lol
ReplyDeleteEeeeyup!
Deleteif she's my cousin im gonna rofl <_< XD
DeleteIt certainly would be funny XD
DeleteAnypony up?
ReplyDeleteOi! Do I count?
DeleteNo, that is why I'm able to post this right now, because I am sleeping.
DeleteYour talents exceeded my expectations.
Delete>/)< *covers her head in pillows*
DeleteI blame HeverHoof!
Delete*peeks out of pillows* for...what exactly can you blame him?
DeleteI blame om!
DeleteI need a reason to blame him? Oh never mind then.
Delete...*sits on a couch with her bunny and a blanket and Skypes om*
DeleteLets go to the next post.
ReplyDeleteLead the way o' blue hired one!
Delete